I know that cancer can take away many things but I feel mostly like it has given me a lot, namely perspective. I've always had grandiose visions of saving the world but of course I don't have time to save the world. It is only now that I realize that it is the small things that you do that make a difference. While I used to put Alanna off when she wanted to do something with me, I now take wonder in each little moment we get to spend together and realize that very soon she will be a grown up who may not want to bake a cake with me.I always imagined that I would be the one taking care Wesley and how he has amazed me. I have never loved him more and not for any over the top gesture nor have I discovered this fact while on a fantastic vacation with him. It is again the little things, he patiently waits for me to come around from each treatment, he makes grilled cheese sandwhiches for me at 11 o'clock at night, and somehow he still thinks I'm beautiful. And as my best friend of 16 years moved away today, I realized how I have been putting her off for years. While she lived only a few minutes away, rarely did I make an effort just to go and spend time with her, now to see her I will have to travel thousands of miles. I know that the Lord chooses our journey for a reason and I am grateful for what I am able to learn along the way.